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What she can do, however, is show people the blood and tell people where it came from.

In case you’ve forgotten Aunt Lydia’s story up to this point,let’s backtrack.

Ann Dowd as Aunt Lydia

June is doing everything she can to save her daughters from Gilead.

Doesn’t Lydia believe she’s doing the same?

June, like Lydia had done, is losing focus on why she started fighting to begin with.

Ann Dowd as Aunt Lydia

Ann Dowd, the actress who plays Aunt Lydia, toldThe Hollywood ReporterLydia feels responsible for Janine.

“[Aunt Lydia] can’t quite forgive herself for taking that eye out.

It’s a weakness that Lydia pleads with God to forgive.

Aunt Lydia in front of Handmaids

InSeason 5, Episode 3, Lydia bargains with God in an attempt to save Janine’s life.

“I know you’re unhappy with my behavior,” she says.

“Sometimes I’ve lost my temper.

Aunt Lydia (Ann Dowd) and Commander Lawrence (Bradley Whitford)

I was trying to keep my girls safe.”

That includes surrogates, and not just the children given to the commanders and their wives.

Aunt Lydia loves her handmaids in an obsessive, possessive way that is meant to help them survive.

Aunt Lydia standing with Janine and Esther

In Margaret Atwood’s “The Testaments,” you learn first-hand how Lydia survived Gilead’s formation.

But believing fully in what Gilead stands for has meant looking away and shutting people out.

But unfortunately for Lydia, shehaslet people in: the handmaids she’s trained over the years.

Ann Dowd as Aunt Lydia

“What are you smoking?

They want those girls in their homes accessible, anytime.”

Is Aunt Lydia switching sides?

For one, Dowd says Lydia is very over the commanders and their nonsense.

“Enough is enough,” Dowd told The Hollywood Reporter.

In the scene between Lydia and Lawrence’s eye-opening conversation, Serena and Luke stand-off.

In the scene between Aunt Lydia and Commander Lawrence, both are framed to the right of center.

Prior to this scene, she’s usually centered.

If Lydia does join Mayday, Dowd doubts Lydia will tell anyone.

“[Lydia] has her sources.

She keeps it private and hidden, but she has it all.”

Like the biological parents of the children handed out to Commanders.

“They will come too late, the Eyes,” Lydia says in Atwood’s book.

“My messengers have flown.”